“Keep me away from the wisdom which does not cry, …”

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I don’t know if it’s wisdom, but I am crying non-stop these days. By non-stop, I mean 24/7. My cheeks are wet during the day. My pillow is soaked during the night. I have been asked why I cry. The answer is: I don’t know. Is it because of depression, my Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, the pain in my back, the general sad state of affairs in the world, the general sad state of affairs in the church, the school shootings, not being able to meet the needs of my friends on the street, … ?

I have been trying for weeks to write a fundraising post for The King’s Jubilee, something positive and encouraging. I am paralyzed with grief every time I try to write. I finally decided to go with it. We have about $250 per month in regular donations. That just about covers auto expenses. We need 10 times that to continue the ministry. I have worked 3/4 time to full time for 25 years with no pay and few vacations. (We had our first vacation, a weekend in DE, in 9 years, last week, due to the generosity of friends.) I am not complaining. I am just spelling things out. There is more than “just Thursday night” going on here. People get upset with me. People believe lies told about me. People disagree with my politics. They punish the poor and homeless by withdrawing support to the ministry.

I will tell you a dirty little secret. Everyone who has served the poor as long as I have has roughly the same politics as I do. I will tell you another dirty little secret. Christians should stop wasting their money on politics. We can make a bigger difference in setting the pace in direct ministry, in Jesus’ Name.

Every dollar given to this ministry is helping the poor and homeless in one form or another. We receive no government or corporate support. We are not hosted by any given church. We depend on your alms. God bless you.